Your loving letter is simply the most beautiful reflection of the pure light of your incredible inner spirit. You say, “I am no Role Model. I come from such a difficult and broken past. I had no other choice than to choose the path of survival.” We beg to differ, Ruth. In fact, you had many choices. You could have chosen to grow cold and bitter. You could have chosen to repeat the mistakes of your mother, your brother, your father. But you didn’t. You witnessed death and experienced violence at the hands of those you trusted. Yet, you chose to create a life for yourself and your two beautiful children. That was worthy. That was kind. That was empowered. You chose to live by your mantra: I am the only one compelled to love myself, everyone else has a choice.
You immigrated to America from Jamaica as a young mother with two small children. You made a life for them, and for yourself. You say, “The past is a place of reference, not residence.” And, you become a self-described “Jill of all trades, master of none!” You were an entertainer (singing Jazz for the likes of Maya Angelou), you were a carpenter and a secretary (getting chased around desks!), you worked retail, you worked in banking, you became an artist and a fitness instructor. You even wrote a book – a series of short stories – that sells on Amazon to this day. As a child, you found respite under your bed reading used books with sections missing – some missing the beginning, some the ending, some both. But you used your imagination to complete the story. And, as a grown woman, you did the same. You used your power to complete your story – to create your beginning and middle.
Some things were out of your control, however, and you became ill. While the doctors worry about your prognosis, you refuse to give up. You say, “When you have a sense of gratitude, your life becomes peaceful.” And, you find peace.
You are an incredible Role Model, Ruth.
With love,The Laurie Felt Team